Which is ironic, in a way, because I am slowly realizing that no matter what I am doing, stress will always be there waiting. It will change masks, if you will, but stress in and of itself will always be there.
Thankfully, I opted out of a little extra stress I was making for myself by quitting my second job. I worked with them for about two weeks, and found out that there was no way I could juggle 19 credits, my main job at the restaurant, and being the president of the culinary club and succeed at all of them with keeping my mind. Plus the added stress caused by my favorite, you lovely ladies out there.
When I get married, new kinds of stress. New problems, new solutions. I know I will always come out on top though. I think that the best way lately I have found to deal is to just be confident. At the restaurant, when 20 tables are sat at once, I take a deep breath and just do it. And I almost always do everything well when I do that. At home I have found that I need to stop being the problem solver for everyone and jut let people live their own lives and make their own mistakes. Same goes for friends as well. I don't really know how people should go about their lives any more than I do about how to go about mine. I am always going to learn and grow. At school I have trouble displaying my confidence, because I fear that it will make me seem like an asshole. I know I CAN be an asshole when I want to be, but it's totally different than always being one because of how I am acting.
I don't know why I am truly writing this, but I need to explain to someone how I am feeling, and quite honestly, nobody is awake to call at this time of night. So I blog to vent. This has been my first official vent blog.
So to all of my friends out there who need to deal with stress, just be confident in your ability to do it, and it will get done.
Lazy moose. Very VERY LAZY MOOSE.
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